I have been back in “normal” society for more than a month now, which feels both familiar yet strange to me.

Time has flown so quickly compared to when I was in prison! I was surprised to find that I was already 43 years old--time waits for no one! I considered those past eleven years my prime years; I could have been devoting myself to society, serving it well. Unfortunately, my time was totally wasted in prison.

During these past eleven years, there was so much I could have done for our society!

Over the past month I have been greatly encouraged by my family's unconditional love. My students and friends have shown their sincerest affection and caring as well. Regretfully, I feel our society is still as reckless and arrogant as it was eleven years ago; one can still sense the pallor of “cultural revolution”…

I would like to visit my friends and students across the country, but I do not wish to bring them any “trouble” due to my presence.

Who can answer this question for me: Will society allow my help?

回到这个既熟悉又陌生的社会已是一月有余了。与狱中的时光相比，这一个多月显得忽如闪电，不经意间，惊叹时不我待，我：今年已届四十三周岁了。最能为这个社会奉献心血的十一年，最能高效地建设社会服务人民的黄金年龄，竟然就消耗在牢狱之中。十一年呀，能为社会做多少事啊……

一个多月来，感受最深的是浓浓的亲情和师生义、挚友谊。感慨最甚的是这个社会依然是十年前的那个浮躁又专横的社会，甚至还能感受到“文革”的气息……

 很想去看望朋友和学生们，但愿不会给他们带来“麻烦”。

 想请教大家一个问题：这个社会还能让我做些什么？